when you fall, hop back on….

so it has been ages since i’ve posted on here and i apologize for that. the truth is, i went off of my bi-polar meds thinking i was magically healed or something and had a bad bi-polar relapse. i spent weeks in bed and all my time angry for no reason. grouchy was an understatement. anyways, i pulled myself together, took my meds and within a few weeks i was feeling great again. unfortunately, those who are on psych meds like myself, tend to get a wild hair and go off of them all of a sudden when we start feeling better. it can come out of nowhere and mine is usually stemmed from denial..do i REALLY need meds to be ok? uh, YES! i must remind myself of that everyday or else im in trouble. anyways, things are good now again. the sun is shining in my days again and i will hit my one year sober milestone on july 29th…so excited. stay healthy everyone.. im back!

Am I good enough…

I’ve found that since I’ve been sober I question my worth every now and again… it can come from nowhere it literally just pops into my mind. I try to remind myself that I am worthy and loved.. maybe it’s just old guilt coming back up to bug me. Not every day will be perfect.. some days it requires a lot more work than others but you have to remind yourself that this too shall pass and look at how far you’ve come.

my brief absence

I was silent the past few days fighting a brief stomach bug. I didnt leave my bed for a few days. Hope everyone is well today!

I havent had much on my mind besides being ill but I know I want to inspire and I cant do that being silent. When life gets stressful or even boring, my mind can wander off to the what if train….what if i just have one glass of wine, i will be okay. what if i just use on the weekends, i can control it now its been long enough…these are lies I still entertain at times until i bring myself back into reality and say NO! I dont want to go back, i have come too far. say a little prayer and keep on the right path of love and happiness.

Good read about getting out of bed

www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/depression-get-out-of-bed

here’s to a new day!

here’s to a new day!

here’s to a new day!

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here’s to a new day!

Each and every day that we wake up it’s an opportunity to start over. Whatever happened yesterday has passed and you made it through it. I have had to learn to wake up and make myself say this to myself over and over until it became natural. I used to wake up and be holding onto old baggage that made me miserable. It was like I was living the same bad day over and over because I was allowing myself to. Don’t allow yourself to suffer any more than you have to. It may not have been your choice to lose your job or breakup with your partner or whatever, but it absolutely IS your choice how you will handle the situation. Not so great things happen to us all, it’s life, we cant change that so why smolder in it. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and continue pushing forward. If you have a higher power (whatever that may be), lean on that. My life has more peace in it because I have a higher power that I know has my back. It doesn’t have to be a “God” figure, it can be anything. Personally, I am more of a spiritual person than a religious one. thats my choice. the point is, having a higher power, whatever that looks like, has changed my life in many ways. I walk in faith and trust that i will be okay and that everything happens for a reason. Everyone have a beautiful day and remember, leave the baggage behind

Night eating syndrome. Interesting read

www.eatingrecoverycenter.com/blog/signs-symptoms/Night-Eating-Syndrome-The-Eating-Disorder-We-Need-to-Talk-About

when things get tough..

i have to remind myself every day that I cannot get comfortable. what I mean by that is that I cannot forget that I must work on myself a little each day. When in recovery, it is one day at a time… thats exactly what life must be… one day at a time. Once I think that I am better and can slack off, i’m in trouble. Some days are harder than others. I have days that I don’t think I will make it through.. I find myself resentful of the fact that I am not like so many others who can control themselves. Meditation really helps. I thought it was a crock at first until I really tried it. It is an amazing relaxation and mind clearing tool. I find that when I am on the off days, meditation grounds me and puts me right back where I need to be. It doesnt always pull me out of a funk, but it’s nice. As long as you remind yourself that each day is a new oppurtunity to build yourself higher, you can do anything. Good day ya’ll!

Good morning

Good morning and have a lovely day everyone…. ❤️🙏

Interesting read

americanaddictioncenters.org/addiction-medications/naltrexone